My Turns

Sometime I feel like life is so hard but other times I believe it's easy. Being 19, it's a time where we are meant to mess up but everyone expects so much from us. Two years ago, my daily contemplation was what will I have for lunch. Then, last year, I had to choose what I want to be, where I want to go, and what my real priorities are. And honesty, I still don't know. Seven months ago I came to Nichols just hoping I made the right choice. But really how can anyone know that they made the right choice? Whether it is their career, their school, their relationship, or just what they do at night what they do at night; how do we know? Right now I have so many options (most of them being bad ones) ending with not enough sleep on the nights it is needed. I guess we can only hope we make all the right turns so we end up in the the right place, with the perfect person, doing what we're meant to do. Being at this age, it is easy because I can mess up, make mistakes; then wake up the next day, shake it off and just hope I do a little better. It's just hard because no one tells you the right way to do things or how to find yourself. Right now, I need to find me. Which sucks because in the process I have lost some people I never thought I would but I've also found a few really awesome people that have just made my discovery just that much easier. I don't know where I'm going, I just hope I like once I get there.